I have a strong sense of loyalty towards the people I let into my life. When I'm crossed I find it especially difficult to move forward and release the negativity. The people who I resent often are completely unaware that I'm harboring any negative feelings.
Memories of the past and pain, feelings and emotions, grudges and injustice resurface throughout everyday life. I'm tired of my mind being filled with thoughts of sadness and anger. I may have been treated badly but I'm treating myself worse with this self-inflected punishment. I want so badly to be the type of person who can move on, I am starting to.
Closure isn't always possible. In most cases we never find the justice we seek, no apologies or pursuits of civil coexistence, just a lot of lose ends and broken pieces.
Resentment is our minds way of somehow getting even with the things that have wronged us. The problem arises from the fact that all that is at harm is our own mental being. Our resentments in no way impact our enemies, they simply poison our mind and corrupt our happiness.
Forgive the past and forgive yourself for letting it happen, forgive the person for letting you get hurt, forgive them for the future they live without you, and for the fact that they could not see your value. They often don't care if you forgive them, in fact you shouldn't feel the need to announce that you forgive them. This is not about them, it's not about what they did, this is about you. You are forgiving them for yourself, because you deserve the peace of mind that stems from forgiveness.
I'm writing this for my friend Hunter but also for myself. Because just when I think the dust has settled one foul memory sends me reeling, so I think it's time I take my own advice.
I highly suggest that you read this article I came across, it might help. (http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-therapist-is-in/201103/living-resentment-is-taking-poison-and-hoping-the-other-guy-will-get)
peace and love my darlings <3